lol omg went to BGIC today

lobbying was done yesterday after 6 damn copies of my reso 0.o anyway yeah today was good i like it i guess lol. hmmmm i sat next to nicole today she’s so nice ^^ she reminds me of me in some ways… makes me miss ainsley though being around her i don’t really know why

saturday approaches

the battle plan 0.o  i dunno !??!

just the same old same old? roses chocolate ?

hmmm well not really since I LIVE WITH HER, haha the handbook didn’t really get me ready for this.. hehe…..

.  well maybe i should sit there..  downstairs  and wait for her….  with the roses and chocolates..

and when she comes down half asleep

and putting on her glasses

she sees a strange figrue at the foot of the stairs

something red…

something black.. is that a suit?

are those chocolates?….

she takes a few steps down and fixes her glasses

to see me holding roses and soem chocolates (not sure hwat brand)

then i say it…… “i have no idea what else to say…. maybe…. i think i have a crush on you zi yun will you be my valentine?”

and there pretty much my only bet at getting a valentine

hmmmmmm all or nothing …

sounds interesting enough “, hopefullly it all goes witout a hitch

valentine’s approaches

i’m writing this in the darkness of my room the keys are invisible .. and yet i don’t make as many mistakes as i normally would… is it cuz i have alot of experience with this key board because it’s all i use all the time? hmmm or maybe i’ve found a heightened sense of awareness.. hehe whatever it may be valentine’s approaches

so anyway… zi yun… i wonder what you’ll say on saturday a big resounding no? or a yes?

haha ji won asked me today… “miguel are you going to the dance??….. are you going to ask zi yun?”

and i said “nope i’m going alone.. i’m too scared to ask her”

hahah she said “what kind of man are you =,=” nahhhhahaha …. hmmmm  well i guess my hearts still fragile from the drama before…..

so this is it huh

hmmmmm today i spent my day in the boarding house.. very interesting experience….. i went out with the two korean girls yesterday to the mall hahaha… more like we took the same bus there and back… had a haircut hmmm nothing looks longer or shorter… ji won said it was a waste of money cuz i didn’t do anything >.< hahahah but any.

Hmmm i’m getting in trouble with my spanish homework god damn it >.<…… ahhh well nevemind now that there’s no extra class on mondays i can get to working on that … and also i think i should hack and slash away at my CAS hour activities… or get them over the weekends … hehe ..

finally over

at last it’s over… i still love her, just that…… maybe finally my hearts sick  of being hurt… and it knows that it’s time to move on… and i think my subconcious was much farther ahead of my concious decission, maybe….. i was already preparing to move on long time ago……. i just had to come to grips that… all this hard work, could make someone else other than ainsley much happier than if i just kept trying my hardest to win her back he same energy could make alot more people happier than her i hope so…….

i wonder if zi yun has a boy friend yet “, hmmmm well we’ll see ^^ valentine’s day is closely approaching

tasik lama walking

jeez =,= walking around up down up down tasik lama so damn tiring … however incredibly fun ^^ good work out hmmm and nice people to talk to at least hehe not an intrepid hike through the forest weilding machettes so yeah good fun

4A’s

4A’s, 2B’s and one C hmm not too bad not as good as i expected.. ahhh well i did it with a broken heart and pants that were two inches too thin “, i’m happy the ait is over

hmmm

just finished my chem practicals today…. hmmmmm i’m getting really tired this week lots of things to catch up on and lots of homework packing up against me… i better get crunching hopefully my extensions can go over the weekend and i’ll be fine “, ….

hmmmm that’s school life social life.. hmm doing pretty well picking up hahah i finally am starting to have friends over here.. and everyone’s nice…. hmmm i hear really random stuff about the girls in the school 0.o….. hard to tell who likes you here though.. everyones so open you can never really tell…….

hmm well i’m glad that i have friends now “, hmmm they wont stop asking about you ainsley…. nyssa was asking just now how me and you were….i wish i could say terrifically but the truth is ….. it wont be that way till i get another chance :S hmmmm things will pick up hopefully.

apparently carla’s a little mad at ainsley.. hmm hmmm …… even though ainsley said not to i think i will talk to carla…. i hate seeing ainsley sad over these things.. that’s one thing that i know “, .. and one thing i will put into practice if we ever get back together

prom last night

prom….

hmmmm…..

not what i thought it would be ahh well…..

it was…. fun though we didn’t dance, though i had no date too…. it was quite enjoyable

got to meet some new people …. hmmmgot to see some old friends….

how and why does she do it

how can someone so young and kiddy hurt me so damn much with just a few words???? jeez >.< i really need to solve this heart out …..i can’t be crying over things like this .. and yet the stuff that’s meant to make me cry isn’t even touching me …… hmmm confusing